Jana´s tiny and exciting world

I need my own appartment !!!

2006-12-06T18:36:00.000+01:00

Fucking Jesus Christ !!!
I´m sick of it ! I´m sick of it living together with my stupid dad in that fucking appartment here. He makes me go nuts!!!

So if any of you guys has too much money in his or her pocket and would like to support somebody financially....well, just let me know. The sooner the better!!!

Or maybe someone can give me some advice concerning money for my own appartment. I would really appreciate it!!

Thank you

Why ?

2006-12-05T13:25:00.000+01:00

Why does this happen to me ?
Why does it take so long?
Why doesn´t it stop?
Why can nobody help?
Why? Why? Why?

What´s the sense of life?

2006-12-05T11:31:00.000+01:00

I do not know !

Looks like dirt, smells like dirt and tastes like dirt

2006-12-04T14:59:00.000+01:00

Hahaha, today i got my russian radioactive medicine, which is by the way FUCKING expensive!!! 54 euros for 250g !!!
And to make things even worse, that stuff is disgusting. I mean it really looks like a mix of street dirt and sand. It even smell like that, and the taste???
Well, it tastes the way it looks! I have to drink that shit within a day six times.
MMMMhhh, yummi in my tummy !!!! But i really hope that it works. If not? Maybe i have to eat shit of a sibirian ice tiger, who knows....

So, CHEERS !!!!

Imagine we wouldn´t have music on that planet !

2006-12-03T14:50:00.000+01:00

Oh dear!
Music is the best, there´s no doubt about it!
Yesterday i finally bought my first Frank Sinatra LP, ok it´s a Greatest Hits LP, but it´s awesome! I always wanted to buy a Frank Sinatra CD and now i did.
And i can recommend it to everybody. This guy is fantastic. I don´t what his secret is but as soon as you listen to his songs you are in a good mood all in an instant!!
I love him.

Oh, and than another song that rocks! The band is called New Young Pony Club, and their latest song "Ice cream" is the commercial song of that hp intel duo core thing.
This song is so cool and the lyrics... amazing: I can give you what you want, i can make your heart beat short, i can make you ice cream.... the rest is hard to understand, but it is definetly a "good-mood-song" !!!

Ok, that´s all i wanted to say. Oh yeah, tomorrow i´ll get my russian radioactive medicine.... YEAH !!!

Life can be such a bitch !!!

2006-12-02T11:58:00.000+01:00

Well, as you can see: i´m still alive !!
It´s been a while since the last time a posted something, i know, but being infected with non-motivation it´s quite exhausting to write something.
But a lot of things happend. Good things as well as bad things. Well, maybe the good thing are bad things or the bad things are the good things, we dicuss it later. Would be too confusing i guess.

Allright, as i mentioned in a post before, i´m sick, my health condition is not the best. I swallow alot of medicin, but obviously it doesn´t work. Well, next week i´ll receive some new medicine, it´s some natural stuff, silicium. And you know what´s funny about it??? They´re still testing that medicine!! So maybe my arms, legs or fingers leave my body sooner or later, like in the UK, where some people tried medicine and were likely to die. And to top that: this medicine was developed by a doctor and his russian wife !! Exactely, RUSSISAN! You probably heard what happened in Russia the last weeks, and what happened to that ex-KGB agent -> radioactive man!
Perhaps i´m going to gleem like an atomic reactor, who knows. As soon as something happens, i´ll let you know. But i´m quite confident that this new stuff will help me.

Due to that fucking week-long sickness i´m missing a lot of days at my college, which is very depressing cause i love studiyng foreign correspondence and i love the people there!!!! I mean, they´re friends to me and i really care about them.
But they also care about me , that´s a good feeling !!! So due to my absence i´m actually studiyng at home, which is awful ! It´s really not funny at all.

Ok, let´s change the subject!

Christmas is coming. For some of you guys it might be the best time of the year, which is no bad thing. But for my part, i firmly admit, that i don´t like christmas. Why? I just don´t like faked happiness and affection. It´s the same stupid procedure as every year. You´re thinking about christmas presents knowing that you have no money for them. You tell people what you´d like to have for christmas, and all you get is some shit you didn´t mention at all. And you always have to pretend to be happy and satisfied! So actually christmas is a big show with more or less good actors playing the happy family for 2 days. Yep, i´m sure that santa claus loves these dramas and comidies...

And than..... do you remember COC? Cause of Confusion?
I mentioned that person in some earlier posts. Just to sum it up, I said that i have a crush on a certain person, which causes confusion in my head.
Ok, it´s not only a crush, i think it´s more. Now you´re probably asking: why confusion? Well, well: it´s a girl !! No, it´s a woman. She´s my age and i really like her, she´s very sexy, has a lot of humour, is intelligent and very interesting.
The confusion doesn´t occur just because it´s a woman, no, the thing is that she´s not attracted to woman, which makes the whole thing a bit difficult.
And it´s really hard to talk with her and to spent time with her, when you´re constantly thinking of kissing and touching her. I don´t know whether she knows it or not, but i try not to act that stupid. I hope it works.
It really sucks, cause actually i don´t fall in love so easily, but after a few days i knew that she is awesome and that i wanna know more about her. But there´s another difficulty. We´re about to become good friends, and you know the problem with friends and love. Sooner or later the friendship suffers.... And i really love her friendship and i don´t want to risk that friendship. Anyway, time goes by and things will change.

I know that all that stuff here sound much depressing but i´m ok. I just had to write it down, in order to feel a kind of relief. Does it work? I´ll tell you later.

Ok, what else? I dunno. I hope that my next post will be a lot more happy and confident. I´m pretty sure it will be, time passes by and change is the only constant thing in life, right?

So take care guys.

Being back in business

2006-10-20T17:24:00.000+02:00

Allright guys! My two weeks off are finally over. This was my first week after my holidays and i think i managed it quite well. I got some written exams back with satisfying results. And i took some new photos of the tv tower during sunset and well, they´re amazing. I lov´em. Hopefully you get an impression of the atmosphere when taking the pics. Take care!

Is it magic ?

2006-10-10T23:10:00.000+02:00

No!!! That´s the result of my spiritual skills and my wonderful camera!

It´s been a long time since...

2006-10-10T19:58:00.000+02:00

WOW!
The last week was awesome. As you probably know I´m enjoying my two weeks off.
And I have to say that the last week ´was so much fun, there wasn´t one day of boring things. Ok, one day, but I guess that´s acceptable.
During the week before my vacation I felt really exhausted and tired, my batteries were really really low.But now, I´m feeling great! Life can be so wonderful and tomorrow I´ll see COC!Yeah!!!!
And I came again to the conclusion that Berlin is such a cool city, it´s amazing, big, funny, culture, horney, tasty, nice, loud, hectical, calm, slow...everything. I love it.But it´s not my only love - Montreal is as good as Berlin - I think even better!
But at the moment I have to take what I can....
And you know what´s the best?! There are 5 days left of my vacation !!!
5 days of partying, drinking, laughing, having a crush on COC and even more!!
I´m lovin´it.
But I have to start learning again, I mean it´s not like school, cause you don´t learn during your holidays when you attend school. But this is different, cause it´s my future job, so now I really learn for the future and for a potentional job in Montreal, who knows. I would also appreciate Australia or Asia. I´m not that picky...
And a lot of political stuff happened during the last days:
3rd October - The National German Holiday. Okay, most of us partyied the night before, so we actually spend the day with sleeping, watching stupid holiday tv, drinking and partying again. So, a typical national holiday in Germany.
Then, this wonderful German government passed the new health insurance law, the dumbest thing I´ve ever heard of. And you know what´s really funny abou it?
It will be come into force in 2009!!! So it will not come into to force within this legislation, no, after the next election! Very clever, isn´t it?
So, just in case everything goes wrong (sure it will), it goes wrong within the next legislation and Angie doesn´t has to worry about it anymore during her current legislation. Wow, what an intelligent lady she is...
Well, and then there was that tiny blast in North Korea by that ugly, small guy with the ugliest glasses and haircut I´ve ever seen. North Korea conducted its first atomic bomb test. Well, it was just a matter of time I guess. But is it random, that ol´Kim Jong conducts the test, when the UN assembly elected South Korea´s Foreign Minister the new General Secretary?? Think what you want..

So, as I mentioned above: A week full of action! I hope yours was as good as mine.

Take care

5 days left !!!

2006-09-25T10:17:00.000+02:00

Okay Ladies and Gentlemen !
The countdown is rolling ! Only 5 days to my vacation which I obviously deserve!
Well, this is my 6th week of studying English and French correspondence and as far as I can say: I like it , I like it very much !!! But after one year of doing nothing except sleeping, drinking and partying, 6 weeks of getting up early and doing homework in the afternoon are pretty tough. But I get used to it and I enjoy it in a certain way.
And maybe I can spent some time with COC in my holidays, we will see. But as soon as something develops I will post it, maybe, depends on what happens in the next weeks. I hope a lot will happen.

Take care

Confusion in my head

2006-09-24T19:43:00.000+02:00

Well, after writing and passing some exams last week and after partying (is that a real word?) more or less that weekend I finally got to the point that I´m not able to concentrate anymore.....ok, I´m tired, and I gotta learn some business english phrases like "the nuts and bolts of retailing" or "increasing profit margins" - which by the way is not funny at all - cause tomorrow I have to translate german phrases into english concerning the marketing strategy of H&M (right: H&M)within 90 min. That´s not long, i know, but the emphasis lays on tenses. YES, tenses. Shit like simple past and present perfect continious.......
Ok, just to give you guys a little impression of my thoughts:
I have been learning english since 5th grade, and I never gave a fuck about tenses cause i used them in the way they sounded appropriate. So i got along with that.
And now, i gotta learn that shit again. Ok, i have to admit that it´s good to repeat that crap: BUT NOT FOR ALMOST 6 WEEKS GOD DAMMIT !!!!!! So that pisses me a bit off.

Now, something else. Which confuses me in a certain way.
I´m attracted to somebody, we call that person "COC" (Cause of Confusion) and i´m not sure if it´s just some kind of temporarly crush or more. COC is really cool and i´m very interested to get to know more about COC but i´m not sure how to handle it.
And frankly i don´t wanna put too much energy in that "mission".
Well, you´re probably right when you´re saying: But otherwise you´ll never find out.
But i think it´s better to be patient and to use a sort of step-by-step technique.
And it will probably be a bit difficult to find out wether COC is attracted to me or not, ok i just could go for it and kiss COC right away, that´s certainly one opportunity but the likelihood that COC will response to that with passion and affection isn´t that high I guess.....

Anyway, so these are the things i´m currently occupied with.
Confusion is a the result. And i think that my holidays will help me to handle it in a better way, cause i don´t have to reflect about fucking past perfect and its buddies.

And i will be able to post more pics of my Berlin-Collection.

Take care

I think too many words would destroy the atmosphere !

2006-09-20T19:40:00.000+02:00

Do vote !!! God dammit !

2006-09-19T16:31:00.000+02:00

Well, as some of you guys probably know: We, in Berlin as well as in Meck-Pomm, had election day last sunday.
Frankly, I´m neither surprised about the result in Berlin nor about the result in Meck-Pomm!
And I think that a lot of you share my view that right-winged motherfuckers have just nothing to do in a German parliament, even if it´s just a Landestag. But unfortunatly that fucking bitches made it in the parliament of Meck-Pomm. I don´t know what you think, but I´m deeply ashamed of this! Moreover, they made it in 4 district parliaments in Berlin! One of the is Lichtenberg, as you know: This is the district I´m living in!!!!!

So why did that bullshit happen?!
One reason is-it makes me pretty angry by the way- is that many people did not vote!
So why the motherfucking hell did they not vote??
This stupid behaviour leads to the result that some freaking nazis are sitting right next to people, who don´t want to punish foreigners for Germany´s misery.

Just think about it! Every vote against these bitches will prevent them from sitting in one single parliament!

DO VOTE !!!!! NEXT TIME !!! AND DON´T SAY: "OH, IT´S NICE WEATHER, I THINK I DONT´T GO TO THE POLLS" !!!

Berlin, du bist so wunderbar !!!

2006-09-17T10:15:00.000+02:00

Ja, ja. Berlin is schon ne Schicke. Da jeht nischt dran vorbei.
Dat is erstmal nur n kleiner Einblick in meine ultimative
Berlin-Collection.

Weitere Bilder folgen in Kürze.

To all English speaking people: Take a close look! That´s Berlin, well part of it. These are some of my pics I´m going to publish here.
More pics will be coming.

To all French speaking people: As I mentioned, forget it !

What am I supposed to say ?

2006-09-16T10:48:00.000+02:00

So Freunde der Sonne !!!!

Welcome to my nice blog !
Neben myspace is dat doch janz schick hier. Und irgendwie dreht sich hier ja dann allet um mich.

Naja, nicht ganz. Ich werd dat hier nutzen, um mal meine Gedanken, Gefühle, Sehnsüchte, Freude und was weiß ich hier zu verewigen. Keine Angst, dat wird hier keine theatralische Homepage über die die tiefsten Abgründe einer menschlichen Seele. Nee, eher in kleiner Einblick in meine Welt. OK, sie unterscheidet sich nicht wirklich von anderen "normalen" Welten, aber was ist schon normal.

Im grunde(schreibt man dat groß oder klein???) werd ich hier meine Photos zeigen- Kommentare dazu sind wie immer gern erwünscht- meine Erfahrungen bezüglich der Ausbildung zur Fremdsprachenkorrespondentin darlegen (wusstet ihr eigentlich, wie schwer Simultandolmetschen ist?) und mich über politische, kulturelle, sportliche und internationale Themen mit Freude auslassen.
Vielleicht werd ich hier noch ein Update meiner körperlichen Verfassung reinsetzen, da sich dat ja je nach Mondscheinphase verändert. ;-)

Juti, dat wär erstmal n kleiner Einstieg in die unendlichen Weiten einer angehenden Fremdsprachenkorrespondentin (Gott! Dieses Wort ist so lang!)

Enjoy reading it !

Take care !!

P.S.: To all English speaking people who haven´t understood one single word, apart from the few English words I used in my little introduction:

I just described why I publish this blog ! For further information don´t hesitate to contact me or go into a library and rent a dictionary! ;-)
I try to write my next posts in English, too. But don´t count on me....

To all French speaking people: Don´t even think about me writing that stuff in French !!!